Monday, January 30, 2006

Dulce et Decorum est

There was a great deal I felt like writing about immediately following the election, but (as is plain to see) there is little indication of it. I shall spare you my diatribes, fulminations, and declamations on the matter. Suffice it to say that I was less than pleased with the outcome (albeit, it could have been worse). Although, while the war was lost, my riding of West Vancouver ousted the conservatives (under whatever name) for the first time since 1974, a most unexpected and pleasant surprise.

Lately I have been rather devoted to catching up on the medley of readings that I need to do for my various classes. I am, as of this moment, still significantly behind, but the margin is narrowing. Thus far tonight, I have eschewed my readings in favour of an anthology of poetry (no doubt jointly responsible for my unusually jargonistic affection), but due to my seminar tommorow, shall take to them again presently (or, after this entry that is). In any case, this entry was intended to exhibit some moving poetry, and thus without further ado I give to you Wilfred Owen:

DULCE ET DECORUM EST

Bent double, like old beggars under sacks,
Knock-kneed, coughing like hags, we cursed through sludge,
Till on the haunting flares we turned our backs
And towards our distant rest began to trudge.
Men marched asleep. Many had lost their boots
But limped on, blood-shod. All went lame; all blind;
Drunk with fatigue; deaf even to the hoots
Of tired, outstripped Five-Nines that dropped behind.

Gas! Gas! Quick, boys! – An ecstasy of fumbling,
Fitting the clumsy helmets just in time;
But someone still was yelling out and stumbling,
And flound'ring like a man in fire or lime . . .
Dim, through the misty panes and thick green light,
As under a green sea, I saw him drowning.

In all my dreams, before my helpless sight,
He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.

If in some smothering dreams you too could pace
Behind the wagon that we flung him in,
And watch the white eyes writhing in his face,
His hanging face, like a devil's sick of sin;
If you could hear, at every jolt, the blood
Come gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs,
Obscene as cancer, bitter as the cud
Of vile, incurable sores on innocent tongues,
My friend, you would not tell with such high zest
To children ardent for some desperate glory,
The old Lie; Dulce et Decorum est
Pro patria mori.

March, 1918

Monday, January 23, 2006

Storm clouds a'comin

"There's no question that the minute I got elected, the storm
clouds on the horizon were getting nearly directly overhead."
-George W. Bush

Well, it is voting day in Canda, and that means most of you should be voting. All signs point to a conservative minority government (please don't let them have a majority). All the same, go out and vote. Get the practice. Chances are we will have another one in a year or two. Of course, if you plan on voting conservative, then there is no need to go vote. Why don't you just relax in the warmth of your home? Voting isn't important anyhow. For the rest of you: go vote!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Ruiner

Everyone (everyone of importance at least), has a few songs that hold a special significance. Indeed, more than a few songs. Some songs are tied to significant events in your life. Others simply evoke deep emotional responses, for reasons unbeknownst to you. "Ruiner" by Nine Inch Nails is such a song for me. No other song comes anywhere close to evoking the sense of...fear? repulsion? (something of that nature at least) in me. I don't think the lyrics can do justice to what I am trying to get at. Nevertheless, I have presented them below. I think the power in the song, for me, lies in the fact that much is left up to the imagination, specifically, who or what is being adressed. Because I have a rampant imagination.


You had all of them on your side, didn’t you?
You believed in all your lies, didn’t you?
The ruiner’s got a lot to prove he’s got nothing to lose and now he made you believe
The ruiner’s your only friend well he’s the living end to the cattle he deceives
The raping of the innocent you know the ruiner ruins everything he sees
Now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease
How did you get so big?
How did you get so strong?
How did you get so hard?
How did you get so long?
You had to give them all a sign, didn’t you?
You had to covet what was mine, didn’t you?
The ruiner’s a collector he’s an infector serving his shit to his flies
Maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will suddenly realize
Maybe it’s a part of me you took to a place I hoped it would never go
And maybe that fucked me up so much more than you’ll ever know
How did you get so big?
How did you get so strong?
How did you get so hard?
How did you get so long?
What you gave to me
My perfect ring of scars
You know I can see what you really are
You didn’t hurt me nothing can hurt me
You didn’t hurt me nothing can stop me now

-NIN

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Apathy

School started a week ago, although I missed thursday and friday for vacation purposes. Nevertheless, I am feeling very unmotivated. I had hoped that the holidays would be enough of a break to get me through this term, but I feel like I am burnt out already. I cannot wait for the summer to come, as I plan on taking my first school-free summer since starting my post-secondary education. I really do need the break.
I do have some work to do, but not a whole lot yet, which is nice. That said, I am feeling fairly bored; I don't want to work but at the same time I want something to do. I also need to start cleaning up my res, but the prospect is so daunting that I can't bring myself to start. For that matter, I feel too lathargic to do much at all. Hopefully I can pull myself out of it soon.

On a completely unrelated note, Apple has unveiled their Macbook Pro. Despite having a fairly awkward (and, let's admit it, stupid) name, it looks to be a very nice computer. I almost wish I needed a computer, so that I could justify buying one. I assume I will once my current powerbook expires.